I was about half way through my chemotherapy treatments. They ended the last week of June 2009, and I knew it would be a long road to the recovery I was going to undego, but all this time later I am ready to feel whole and better. I certainly celebrate the one or two days a week I have where there is perfect clarity of mind and my body feels great, but the other days I feel like just the shell of a body, and I don't want to be in it.
There are new possibilities on my horizon with my passing my EMT State Exam and posting to job listings, not to mention classes I am signed up for in the Fall, but there are still days, when I am feeling at my worst, that I wonder what I am still doing here, if all I get is to feel like crap. It is a low place to be, I know, but not easy to jump out of, and I feel myself floundering.........
Friday, May 21, 2010
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